“I watched your sex tape,” one fan told me as I was licking Dole Whip at Disneyland. The two conflicting worlds I’ve lived in for so long are literally and metaphorically at war now. I even wear my Mickey ears.
“I never made sex tapes,” I said, licking the spoon. It doesn’t mean glamorous, but I guess it can be understood that way when you see a girl from your favorite childhood sitcom have sex on camera and then watch her lick the spoon.
“Don’t deny it! I saw you… make love,” he whispered, as if he and I should share this humiliating moment about a movie he watched that I agreed to and paid for. “You’ve been on the boy meets the world and now i have seen your vagina.
He stood there for a moment with his mouth open, waiting for me to say something. My vagina isn’t what shocked him, though if you grew up with that ABC sitcom, I admit it can be a bit shocking. But it was more than that. He couldn’t understand that a woman with a legitimate career shouldn’t be marked with shame for the undisciplined things she’s done – like everyone else in Hollywood who’s had relationships. sex on film and gained fame from there.
Hollywood has a complicated relationship with sex, and it’s even more complicated when it comes to women that it brings to its audience on the hard disk. When I grew up in this industry as part of the Disney machine in the late ’90s and early ’90s, girls were presented as these sexual creatures while maintaining their roles as villains. virgin idiot. Studio overlord carefully step by step, each move is just enough but not too much to satisfy the eyes of men. We’re in a candy-colored bubble, in the movie, on the stage, and broadcast in the living room one day a week and then forever replayed. And I can feel the energy of the young actresses around me bursting out.
Jessica Biel And Elizabeth Berkley were among the first to challenge their family-friendly image. Jessica almost got naked on the cover of a men’s magazine and Elizabeth was about to shock it with beautiful girl. Sex, especially in American family shows, was once a tool controlled by the studios to make money, so why isn’t there a way for girls to use their sexuality? his to famous? This growing affection and the rapid rise of the internet is why I find it no surprise that this is the age when sex tape really came into being.
The only catch is that you have to be humiliated by it.
The formula is as follows: A sex tape is made, “stealed” already then leaked and sold for a big payout. The performer, almost always a woman, has always had to deny her involvement. To be successful, there needs to be distance between you and your prostitute, as if sex for a good woman were an out-of-body experience. And she cannot find success in prostitution unless there is shame, remorse and apology. That is what audiences, trained diligently by the heads of the studios who provide them with this story, want. Watching something played against a woman’s will is voyeuristic. It’s seductively intrusive. And it separates her body from who she is. Does the audience buy the refuse? Sure is not. But they enjoy the illusion of transgression while the essence of the virgin fool remains intact.
And all of that is really just a fantasy. If you are an actor in the adult film industry, you know that in order for your sexual performance to be plastered on DVD covers and sold in sex shops for money, you must sign the papers. verbose and prove your age and humanity with two forms of ID, all while verbally agreeing to have sex in front of the camera while you’re being filmed. It’s not hard to imagine that a movie like One night in Paris don’t stand behind that beaded curtain at the local video store without any star consent. Farrah Abraham, who became known after she became pregnant at the age of sixteen and MTV filmed it, even allegedly shot her professionally with a porn star not yet claim it’s a leak.
Hollywood stars aren’t the only ones trying to milk this system. Mature artists who have made millions by building their names and brands on the shoulders of the industry also follow this formula, especially when they begin to seek the approval of the gods. official. Lana Rhodes And Mia Khalifa are two examples of women who agreed to have sex on film and built big brands out of it, making millions of dollars in the process, only to get away from their prostitution business. them significantly after, you guessed it… regret and shame. To this day, however, they still use their erotic names to make money, and audiences have found them in the adult space to take them to other seas.
But the question is, why should sex be a scandal? Why don’t we get over this ancient notion that a good girl is not a sexual being? In a world ripe with advancement and possibility, why do we still classify women on a scale from virgin to prostitute? While our country and its factions are at odds with each other on every possible issue, the only thing that most mainstream conservatives and feminists have The extreme left advocates that it is bad for women to use their sexuality.
I asked them over and over why I decided to leave acting to pursue adult entertainment and I always told them the truth—I never did. I am an actress. That’s what I’ve always been, no matter what medium I perform in. And I have trouble with the hive mind that believes that once you are thrown into Hades there is no coming back from there. Not if you are happy. There is only a lifeboat provided by the orthodox gods if you cry the necessary tears of shame and regret.
I am not ashamed, and I have never been. I entered prostitution and the world of adult films with enthusiasm and positivity. When I signed a contract with Vixen Media Corporationthe leader in luxury adult content, becoming the face of Deeper brand and collaborating with acclaimed female director and performer Kayden Kross, I saw a bright future with award-winning projects. Finally, there can be the highest quality movies that also have the hottest scenes and can connect the adult and mainstream worlds. Why didn’t the mainstream allow this before? Why are they responsible for ensuring that pornography is seen as an inferior medium? And that no one has any talent other than making love, which, by the way, is a talent in itself.
Although I was warned about this scary place, I found the entire adult industry to be a place where I could express myself to the fullest, unleash my creativity, and use my body as an author. its artwork. How is this different from a dancer or an athlete using their body as a means to achieve, create and showcase their talents? And why does sex, and more than that women love to have sex, still shock us?
I really feel that my refusal to give the well-established story is why I have received such positivity. Someone once told me that if you’re happy and someone keeps shouting that you’re unhappy, they’re the ones who look crazy. And it’s true. When I started this journey, I had no master plan. It was simply me, finding myself throughout countless years and decades. It doesn’t start out as a career choice or a calculated move, though if you don’t pay attention during the process and only see the headline “Rachel from Boy Meets World Does Porn” you can assume that is the case. I find it sad that that assumption is built into our cultural narrative, but it also pushes me to speak louder.
So when I finished a spoonful of Dole Whip at Disneyland that day and looked up at the sky full of rays of victory, I told my new friend who had just informed me that I wasn’t just participating. joins his favorite sitcom, and he also sees my vagina as something simple.
“I know,” I said. “Isn’t it pretty?” Then I straightened my Mickey ears and walked away.